Selena Gomez has been taking a little step out of the spotlight to focus on her health, and now she's opening up about how she's been doing. In her big new interview with Vogue, the star opened up even more about her struggles with anxiety that she dealt with while out on her REVIVAL Tour – and how her social media presence played a role in it.
"Tours are a really lonely place for me," Selena shared. "My self-esteem was shot. I was depressed, anxious. I started to have panic attacks right before getting onstage, or right after leaving the stage. Basically I felt I wasn’t good enough, wasn’t capable. I felt I wasn’t giving my fans anything, and they could see it—which, I think, was a complete distortion."
"I was so used to performing for kids," she explained. "At concerts I used to make the entire crowd raise up their pinkies and make a pinky promise never to allow anybody to make them feel that they weren’t good enough. Suddenly I have kids smoking and drinking at my shows, people in their 20s, 30s, and I’m looking into their eyes, and I don’t know what to say. I couldn’t say, ‘Everybody, let’s pinky-promise that you’re beautiful!’ It doesn’t work that way, and I know it because I’m dealing with the same s– they’re dealing with. What I wanted to say is that life is so stressful, and I get the desire to just escape it. But I wasn’t figuring my own stuff out, so I felt I had no wisdom to share. And so maybe I thought everybody out there was thinking, 'This is a waste of time.'”
Selena also shared that she felt major pressure to look perfect on her Instagram, because so many people were watching.
"As soon as I became the most followed person on Instagram, I sort of freaked out," Selena shared. "It had become so consuming to me. It’s what I woke up to and went to sleep to. I was an addict, and it felt like I was seeing things I didn’t want to see, like it was putting things in my head that I didn’t want to care about. I always end up feeling like s– when I look at Instagram. Which is why I’m kind of under the radar, ghosting it a bit."
Selena also admitted that she has now turned over her Instagram account password to her assistant, so she doesn't feel compelled to scroll through her feed all the time. That sounds like the best way to take a break!
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