Trigger warning: This article contains discussions of self-harm.
Actor Colton Haynes recently came out as gay in a very brave interview, where he admitted that he felt he needed to lie about his sexuality in order to get roles. But now, the star added another shocking and awful reason why he had never publicly addressed the topic, though he came out to his friends and family at age 14 – and it had to do with his family's past.
"I'm the last person in the world who would say, 'Oh, my dad – pity me.' But I was told that my dad killed himself because he found out I was gay. So, of course, I lost it and was like, 'How could you say something like that?'" he told OUT magazine.
"No one will ever really know the truth. But my brother and my mom went to pick up my dad's stuff, and the only picture on his fridge was my eighth-grade graduation picture," he confided.
"I think just having enough nerve and guts to come out in any way is a lot. It was really an emotional thing for me," he shared, saying that his hometown in Kansas was a place where "you just couldn’t be gay."
"I feel really bad that I had to lie for so long, But I was told that was the only way I was going to be successful. When you're young in this industry, people take advantage of you, and they literally tell you that your dreams are going to come true."
We're so proud of him for sharing these really difficult memories, so that others may not have to go through the same thing.
If someone know someone is struggling, please tell them to call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 800-273-8255. For resources about coming out, please visit The Trevor Project.